My Meeting With My School Principal Mrs. Usha Raman, After Two Decades

I have dedicated my book The Truth About Spiritual Enlightenment: Bridging Science, Buddhism and Advaita Vedantato Mrs. Usha Raman, the principal of the school I studied in. The school is Sri Jayendra Saraswathi Swamigal Golden Jubilee Matriculation Higher Secondary School, which is in Sankarnagar near Tirunelveli, Tamil Nadu, India.

On 25th of August 2019, I visited Usha madam at her house to give her a few copies of my book, so that she could also have one for the school library and give other books to those who are interested in the circle of my teachers. The last time I saw Usha madam was about 20 years ago. So, it was a happy moment for both of us.

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From Depression to Bliss – My Old Notes From School Days

I was going through a small bag that I have preserved since school days. I came across a few notes written by me when I was in school. I am sharing those notes with you to show you how depressed and helpless I was in school days. I have omitted certain parts of them. The practice of mindfulness was what cured me from depression and helped me realize my own nature and find my own true bliss.

Here are the pictures of those notes:

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The last picture is not very clear. I have mentioned there that sometimes I used to weep for no reason. It was a mystery for me and I didn’t know what caused my tears without reason.

My depression was very hard to bear and I thought of commiting suicide many times. But it was that suffering which made me to seek the ultimate liberation.

Love and Greed – My Poem

This poem is based on an incident that happened in my school. The teacher mentioned in the poem is Mrs. Usha Raman who is the principal of the school I studied in Sankarnagar, Tirunelveli. If you join the first letters of all the lines, you will get the sentence, ‘Mrs. Usha Raman is my guru’.

Mrs. Usha Raman, Jayendra School

“Madam, kindly help me with your wisdom!

Restless is my mind, I am stupid and dumb!

Say something that will calm my greedy mind!

Unhappy I am”, I grumbled and whined.

She was aware that I was dumb and blind.

Her words were clear, supportive and kind!

And she knew that I had a high school crush.

Roasted by my greed, I was in a rush.

As I helplessly looked, with a soft voice

My teacher said, “True love never destroys

And never hurts; you have greed! It’s not love!

No one is spoiled because of true love!

It is greed which will destroy you indeed!

So pray and ask God to transform your greed!

May your greed transform into loving care!

You’ll find true joy in compassion, I swear!”

Growing up, I reflected on her words;

Until one day I became free like birds!

Real love doesn’t want to possess or own!

Undoubtedly, by pure love, God is known!

Technology – The Miracle Of Science

Technology never stops to amaze me. It is a miracle of cultural evolution, miracle of science, a miracle that came into reality because of human intelligence. It is also personally a miracle to me because of a reason.Let us go back to the memories of the school days when Internet was not yet popular among the masses. I am talking about the days when even having a telephone was a luxury and when phones looked like one shown in the image.kisspng-telephone-5b1ea791bada95.8985520315287356337654Those days I had a lot of ambitions. I wanted to publish my poetry as a book in the future. But the traditional approach to become a famous poet is to keep sending poems to various magazines by post, gradually getting a name as a popular poet and contacting a regular publishing company to publish the work. Those days this way was the only way available to even get some visibility, to even make a few people to read your work. It took years and years of patience and hard work. But a discipline to have such patience and do a lot of hard work on a regular basis was something that I never had. I was very poor in organizing myself and I would rate myself very poor when it comes to conscientiousness.So, getting the poems published for a person like me was like an impossibility. I thought I my poems will all sit in a corner as a pile of garbage and meet destruction in the course of time. But then, a miracle happened. With the internet revolution and with the ability to be connected to the rest of the world just by using a small sleek cell phone that fits into your pocket, everything that was once an impossibility became a possibility. And I am here, able to communicate with thousands of readers all over the world and share my work! Isn’t this a miracle?Anyway, lately I was enjoying changing backgrounds in a popular app called Faceapp and it was all fun. These apps awaken the kid in me, allowing me to play with technology. This is an amazing accomplishment of technology too. I just want to share those pic here, and I am sure you will like them too:FaceApp_1564073981542.jpgFaceApp_1564074266315.jpgFaceApp_1564099121205.jpgFaceApp_1564099298069.jpgFaceApp_1564099420832.jpgFaceApp_1564342777431.jpgFaceApp_1564343325978.jpgFaceApp_1564343686620.jpgFaceApp_1564343857278.jpgFaceApp_1564343973170.jpgFaceApp_1564360206493.jpgFaceApp_1564363565403.jpgFaceApp_1564363853872.jpgFaceApp_1564364195163.jpgFaceApp_1564365399946.jpgFaceApp_1564364484846.jpg